Black And White

~1 John 1:5-7~
“This is the message which we have heard from Him and declare to you, that God is lightened in Him is no darkness at all.(6) If we say that we have fellowship with Him, and walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth.(7) But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin.”

When we have fellowship with one another in return we are in fellowship with Him. In 2015 my life completely got switched up side down. This was my senior year of High school. I had made the decision that I was going to try a new sport. That sport being track. Track was a season that I will never forget. This was the season that really took me down a bad path, a path that I never want to go down again. Thats not to say that track is bad, its actually pretty great. Anyways during this time I started hanging out with people I wouldn’t normally, doing things that I would normally not do and started to really let go of my morals and just do whatever anyone wanted me to do. I was offered drugs, alcohol and sex many times and I refused for a little then I was invited to a party. The thought of going to that party was what really threw me for a loop. Seriously contemplating whether I should really do this or not, Satan was in my mind saying, “it’s okay God will forgive You, He always does doesn’t He” looking back on that really shows me where I was in my walk.I never went to the party, and never gave into the offers of drugs, alcohol and sex but in my mind I still committed the sin because I was willing to do it and walk in darkness. In my eyes I was far away from Him but He was always right there with me telling me that He loved me and He died for me, and that He would never leave me nor forsake me. Hebrew 13:5-6 really spoke to me at this time in my life and I couldn’t be more grateful that He stayed by my side knowing that I would eventually come running back to Him. He is always willing to forgive with true repentance.

“But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin.” The friendships that I made during this time where not healthy and they were probably the worst thing that could have happened at that time but God knew and He allowed me to go through these things because He loves me and knows that I needed to learn that lesson on my own but never left me through it. The friendships that I have now are solid and rooted in Christ. When I am fellowshipping with them I am in return fellowshipping with Christ. I love that I am able to have a friendship with Christ that can never be broken. With these friends I have unity in Christ.
Lord, thank you for saving me, for dying on the cross for me knowing that Your child would run away over and over again but still loving her as if she has never sinned. You are my Light and my Salvation and I thank you for staying with me through it all. For being my light in the darkness and the path for my feet to walk on. I love You Lord and ask that You would continue to be my light and path, my best friend and the love of my life. Thank You for laying Your life down for me and loving me through it all.


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