“When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of their troubles. The Lord is near to the broken hearted and saves the crushed in spirit.”
The thing that bows my mind every time I think about and I hope it never changes is that God see’s, hears and knows EVERYTHING! The love He has for His children is beyond comprehension. He in near to me when I am broken, when I am crying because my heart has been shattered into a million different pieces and it seems like I will never recover, but He is there. He is my refuge, the One I should take rest in. Vs 8, “Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good! Blessed is the man that takes refuge in Him.” He hears my every cry, He feels my pain, He feels my every feeling, He see’s my every move, He hears my every word, He knows my every thought and He still loves me. He knows who I really am, He knows the sinners and terrible person that Autumn has been. I need Him because without Him I would be so lost, I would be nothing but a thing walking this earth with no purpose. Like a mother with her child He loves me no matter what, no matter how many time I screw up, He always welcomes me back with open arms. For years I took that for granted and now I see what it truly means to be His child. He saved me from myself. Only by Him am I able to live day to day without drowning myself in guilt. I have hurt people, I have sinned way to many times to count, I have done things that make me sick inside, but He has erased all of that. He saved me from me. When I was broken hearted and crushed in spirit, He felt my pain. When I was on my knees in my room balling my eyes out crying out for help, He heard me, He delivered me from my troubles, the troubles that Satan would use to tell me I was worthless and no good to anyone. The troubles that pushed me to do things that I never thought I would and think things that I never would dream of thinking. He saved me! His love is a symphony all around me, His love is a melody running through me, all I have to do is run to Him and His arms are wide open. I see His love when I walk and look at a leaf and see that it is shaped like a heart and it reminds me that He has little things on this earth like a leaf, the rain at night, and the smile on a child’s face to remind me how much He loves me. I don’t deserve this life I am living, but because He is there for me in my troubles, in my pain and suffering and to hold me when all I want to do is jump, I know that He has a purpose and a plan.
Lord, Thank you for loving me for me, for not giving up on me even when it seems I have given up on you! You are near to me in my pain and suffering. You are my shoulder to cry on, my best friend and the person I put my trust in. Thank you Lord for loving me more than I will ever deserve.
Application: I am going to find a leaf and put it in the back of my Bible to remind me that He is there when I need to cry, He is there when I am broken hearted and crushed is spirit. HE IS MY REFUGE and He loves me more than I could ever imagine.