Psalm 37: 3-4
“Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness. Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.”
This verse really hit home for me. For years I had dealt with not trusting God. I couldn’t die to my own desires and wants to trust God that He had it all under control. It was my own selfishness that was holding me back. I had two dreams growing up. One, to become a college athlete. Second, to visit a foreign country and share the gospel with the lost. As the years went on the desire to becoming more and more real. My senior year of high school hit and it was time to make the decision. Follow my own desires or let Christ take over. I had made the decision to go to college and play softball. I was getting my dream. I beyond excited, but Christ had a different plan for my life. He was just waiting for me to come to my senses. I was two weeks from going to college and the Lord really pressed on my heart that if I continued to go down this path even though it was my dream it was not going to be good. I got scared. For years I had been following Christ but I was just now realizing that I hadn’t given myself completely to Him. A month later I was planing to go to Guatemala to spend a year of my life serving the Lord with my whole heart. He was giving me my other dream. Within a few months Christ had given me the choice to choose between both of the desires of my heart. One would lead me closer to Him and one would draw me farther away from Him. It wasn’t an easy choice but the one I made was the right one. I don’t and will never regret the decision to follow Christ completely. I found myself trusting Him more and more and finding my identity in Him. I was always worried about what the next step would be but not I know that the cure for worry is TRUST.